Low on Self-Esteem, So You Run on Gasoline.

Last Thursday, I traveled to Atlanta, GA to see Halsey in concert. Anyone who knows anything about me knows that Halsey is my favorite artist on this planet. Her music is wonderful and if you are unfamiliar with it, please check her out. Right now. Open a new tab, YouTube Halsey and let your ears be blessed. I had floor seats and was right next to where she was able to run off stage and down an aisle. I stood about a foot away from her at one point and trust me, it was one of the highlights of my life. It was by far one of the best nights of my life.

My love for Halsey goes beyond her music though. I discovered Halsey at one of the lowest points in my depression. I had just been diagnosed with the mental illness I have after several years of wondering and I felt like nothing in the world could ever lift my spirits again. I didn’t think there would ever be any coming back from that. Once you learn a truth you’ve been avoiding for so long, you can’t unlearn it and it’s devastating on so many levels.

I never knew what someone meant when they said and artist saved their life until I discovered Halsey. I never believed that one person who was such an indirect figure in a persons life, could save them. I decided one morning on my way to work, while in the Starbucks drive thru to download Badlands on a whim. I had heard of her and liked what I heard and needed new, good music to listen to. I fell in love. In the Starbucks drive-thru. At 7:30 on a Tuesday morning. I learned later on about her struggles with mental health and found her to be so inspirational for openly talking about her struggles and allowing herself to be real when it feels like most other “celebrities” glamorize mental illness or at least make it seem like it doesn’t have to be as deep as it truly is. Halsey lets it be real. She doesn’t pretend it’s going to be ok -she works through it  until it is ok, no matter how impossible it seems. I find that to be so inspirational. I didn’t have the opportunity to meet her but one day when I do, I will personally thank her for saving my life that morning. Her music gave me life when I thought mine was over.


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